Mall Rat
an epiphany posting.....
Howdy All,
I am a mall rat. It was a realization made in those brief, yet seemingly endless moments just before falling asleep when one is free of thoughts of the day and consumed with the seedlings of dreams and nightmares. I remembered childhood, and through all the many experiences there was a constant among them all. It was a mall. My adulthood was incubated in the confines of the modern shopping center, known affectionately as "The Mall".
As my mind began regressing I saw flashes of so many childhood experiences. I remembered spending time with my father in his office of JCPenneys sharpening pencils and conducting other simple tasks in order to occupy my time and participate as only a child can. His office is where I most remember him. It was there that I would talk about school, or a new book or CD that I would buy. It was there that I was scolded for various childhood transgressions or, conversely, praised for the mundane achievements that make parents so proud.
I remember shopping for school clothes each year, and of roaming the isles throughout the store in search of nothing in particular. My playground was not a neighborhood park, or forest, but a sea of clothing racks that one could hide in for hours on end. My advisors and caregivers were the associates and managers of the store. It was to them that I could turn for advice or entertainment, and it was in their own children that I found friends. We were Penneys brats, and true mall rats. We would roam the mall court yard for hours during our summers. We knew security. We knew all the stores, and stands. Every inch was ours which we merely allowed others to enjoy. It was our mall. I remember watching people drop coins into the fountains. I would watch with amusement those who scanned the directories because I had long ago memorized it. It was at the mall that I experienced all my childhood mischief and mayhem.
It's influence has inundated my senses. It is the reason I have never felt uncomfortable shopping with friends. It is why I feel a strange comfort at the pungent smell of a beauty salon or a candle shop. It is why I have cravings for such restaurants as Chick-fil-A, The Great American Cookie Company, and Schlotzsky's, not because they are good, but because the were introduced to me in the mall. It is the reason I avoid the mall now. I do not like that I feel so comfortable around so many people. It is strange. It is the reason I do not like people to watch me eat, because I grew up with so many people watching me in the food court. The mall haunts me. One of the many landscapes that repeat themselves in my dreams is that of a large mall which encompasses many attributes of all those in which I grew up.
We all have memories of a childhood haven where so many of our memories find their home, but mine remains sunless and crowded. It is the source of many good memories, as well as those scary moments when children feel alone and lost. I am a mall rat.
-Pooh out.
